Bleak Week

What's the easiest way to slip into a coma?
Dying would be a gift
But I could settle for a four year nightmare
It wouldn't be much different than my waking life

I want to become one with something
I don't care if it has to be the ground
It would still be the most contact I've had all month

If I could, I would forget everything
Forget how to swim
If it meant I could drown in this sea
Of uncertainty

I wanna feel like I deserve to live
I wanna feel like I deserve to live
Save me from myself
I wanna feel like I deserve to live
I wanna feel like I deserve to live
Save me