[Intro]
Oh fuck....just another fucked up day, to my fucked up life. Aww, fuck....Why do I gotta go through another fuckin' day of this shit?? I don't think I can stand it anymore...I don't think I can stand the way it was 5 years ago. And here I am, once again, another fucking day!! I've been putting up with bullshit....since day fucking one!!
[Verse 1]
Back in the days when I was nothin' but a suicidalist or somethin'
I sat here thinkin' to myself "I hate these motherfuckers"
I wished everyone would die or leave me the fuck alone
Homicide was on my mind, I'm wishin' the devil had a clone
Good vs Evil, I was wicked back in '89
Had my own hitlist, whippin' across the enemy lines
Twisted popularity was scarin' me with death threats
Used to steal my lunch money, payin' with death, thought about death
Unloadin' a clip in his fuckin' throat, I was the reaper of the soul
I could take his last breath, takin' tests and go to school
Comin' in full of vengeance, I'm sick of bein' the outcast
One of these days I'll build a bomb and watch the whole school blast
Went to BuildingBombs.com and got the recipe
Thinkin' about this bomb goin' off is gettin' the best of me
Blasphemy, one on one, I was the subject of the gun
Livin the life, I got no love, this is for fighting, this is for fun
This is for all the devil's sons and all the classes, kings and queens
All the jocks that are playing sports, and all of the bitches who couldn't for me
I'm loading up the ammo, dressed in camo, ready for the war
Hit the locks upon the door, no one's getting out for sure
Every motherfucker in this school's gonna die
And I don't give a fuck how much they pray I'm blasting anyway
8:02 on the clock, you could hear the first shot
8:36 son of a bitch, the bombs are going off!!
[Explosions, screaming]
You hear the sirens and screamin', they sound like hot burning demons
I try to run from it all, but my legs got no more feelin'
As I look down in pure shock, my legs are blown the fuck off
I'm pourin blood from my waist and blowing smoke as I cough
I cannot move, I cannot breathe, why the fuck am I living?
Or am I already dead, and Hell's judgement been given?
My visions fading to darkness, feeling hopeless with death
But I no longer wanna die, smell the smoke of my flesh
God forgive me, if you can, if you can't I understand
But my whole life has been hell since I was born into sin
I tried to blame it on society instead of myself
I tried to blame it on the Devil and now I'm burning in Hell!!!
....and it hurts