Bittersweet

I’ve been searching for a long time
Just to find out if I mean right
Am I okay?
Am I honest?
Was I lying to myself?
I remember way back when

I was trying so hard
Stole my father’s car
Trying to get away
How did I make it that far?
Grabbed a bottle of Jack and got lost in a fantasy I made for me

But I’m still stuck right here
I don’t know if I made it clear

That I crashed into a wasteland
Dived down deeper than I should have
When I’m falling down strung out and faded
Back before the drugs and the medication
Things were looking up, how did I get here?
Locked up in my room, too tired to be scarеd
Trying not to call on my temptations, but just like her lipstick I still tastе it
A bitter so sweet

I’ve been waking to the sunrise
Asking questions that I can’t find
Am I so close to the answers I don’t believe them cause I’m blind?
I can’t see at all

I’ve been giving it up
Living life on luck
Stuck in the middle of my fake friends who don’t give a fuck
Long nights we spend in L.A
All the noises wash over me
It’s all make believe

But I’m still stuck right here
I don’t know if I made it clear

That I crashed into a wasteland
Dived down deeper than I should have
When I’m falling down strung out and faded
Back before the drugs and the medication
Things were looking up, how did I get here?
Locked up in my room, too tired to be scared
Trying not to call on my temptations, but just like her lipstick I still taste it
A bitter so sweet

And I don’t want to be a bother, but you know it’s criminal how lost we all can be
Is it typical to turn our backs on ourselves, with our hearts turned out on our sleeves
And I don’t want to live this way, I don’t want to live ashamed
I don’t want to live this way

That I crashed into a wasteland
Dived down deeper than I should have
When I’m falling down strung out and faded
Back before the drugs and the medication
Things were looking up, how did I get here?
Locked up in my room, too tired to be scared
Trying not to call on my temptations, but just like her lipstick I still taste it
A bitter so sweet
A bitter so sweet
A bitter so sweet