Bite The Bullet

[Intro]
"I met this six year old child with this blank pale emotionless face, and blackest eyes"

[Chorus: Blahzay Roze]
I am losing control and
I do not know who I am anymore
I am losing control and
I do not know how I am anymore

[Verse 1]
My weakness, it's so consuming
Wanna shrink it, its so fucking lonely
No Mom, No Dad, nobody knows me
Don’t know who I am, my words unspoken
I'm fine, I'm fine, don’t fucking worry
Cut my neck so deep I bleed out fury
So red it seeps, and my soul controlling
My brain is stuck while the screens still loading
Tears drip down and they burn my cheeks
That's why everyone stares like I'm some fucking freak
My head it speaks to itself at night
Feels like the devil rose up and fucking ate the light
Her bear trap claws they hold on tight
Got scars on my wrist from where she bites
Her appetite never satisfied
Fuck you book and your God. Guess what? They lied
(What the fuck is going on inside my head?)
(What the fuck is going on inside my head?)
(Tell me, doctor)

[Chorus: Blahzay Roze]
I am losing control and
I do not know who I am anymore

[Verse 2]
I'm worth nothing
Put a knife to my wrist, I'm done suffering
Put a gun to my head, I'm not bluffing
You can't stop me
This life I live, it's exhausting
Death wall full force, I’m [?]
Wicked clowns, I’m rolling with the posse
Real world don't even know it lost me
This soul I rent is costly
Secondhand brain damage I’m faulty
They don't want me no matter where I go
Not above the earth or six feet below
I walk alone, start to finish
So much cocaine brain cells diminish
Try to lock me up, I'll escape the clinic
This sickness runs deep in my blood
Heard a pop one time then a thud (Thud)
Suicide over mind like a drug (Drug)
Plant me deep in the ground like a rose bud
This mud is where I sleep
Counting zombies in my sleep not sheep
Eating dirt up off the ground cause its cheap
Don't wanna shower so I walk around and stink
My rage is bloated like the Hindenburg blimp
Just thinking this could be hell
Stuck in a cycle how do I tell
I’m not well, but thats nothing new
Hung myself by a rope now I'm blue
End that shit, 'cause I'm motherfucking through

[Sample]
Rosebud
Rosebud

[Chorus: Blahzay Roze]
I am losing control and
I do not know who I am anymore
I am losing control and
I do not know how I am anymore

"How you doing today, Blahzay?"
"I'm, I'm pretty good"
"Well, um, we called you here so we cold go over your contract"
"Alright"
"There's a couple stipulations in order for you to be signed with us, and um, some of those include, uh, seeing a therapist each week"
"Really?"
"And being on your anti-psychotic medication"
"Heh"
"Now this is for your own safety as well as for everyone here"
"Yup"
"So we hope you understand"
"I guess"

[Outro]
Little bloody killer, I'm a sicko psycho freak
Better cross to the other side when I'm strolling down your street
I come straight from the carnival, red Converse tied up on my feet
Sneak into your house through a window leave you bloody on the sheets (Tye dye)
My face is painted up, black tears slide across my face
I'm killing so many fucking people, I'll extinct the human race
There will only be one left and you see it will be me
Sitting all alone just smiling, finally in peace