Birds of a Feather

[Verse 1]
It's really hard to not feel so resented, just so much that I should mention
There's a battle in my head, a lot of thoughts I wish I vented
I get mad at me again and come across not how intended
Never trying to offend, can barely even form a sentence
Would somebody get it? I can't even say a word with ease
Everything's regretted, feels like they all wanted me to leave
Until it's embedded to the point where it's all I believe
And only cause I let it, really think I have some self-esteem?
I just need a friend beside of me
It's really all I've dreamed, how could I achieve it if it's me
The one who barely speaks, then they stare at me, I need some therapy
I don't know why they do it, why they're scared of me
That isn't fair, you see though, that's why I need you
You're a different kind of rarity, one I'll never lose
You don't need to give me clarity, I won't ever refuse
That you and I have similarities, we just can't read the room

[Chorus]
If I could find a way to word it
Then it'd be a little easier to let a single person
And know the more I do a part of me continues worsening
But maybe I'm just scared to open up cause I'll get hurt again
The truth of me is surfacing, still feel like a burden, but
One day I might accept that I can't help, but just be nervous
And I wonder if it's worth it or if we're birds of a feather
Scared to open up, but not so much when we're together

[Verse 2]
Really wish I could find the words
But hoping you'll be the one who would wind up doing it first
They look at me like I'm somebody more than I think I'm worth
I'm clumsy and ruin the fun 'cause I fall and I make it worse
And then ball when I'm in the dirt, nowadays I accept it
It's better to take a chance than to be afraid of rejection
As long as you've got a plan, I'm just not a fan of attention
And just because that I'm quiet don't mean I don't want connections
Well, sort of, I would have died of boredom
If I didn't take a chance 'cause my heart couldn't afford it
Always tell myself I can't, one way I could feel rewarded
Is surround myself with people, I know that I'll be supportive
On the border of it, I might even slip
Hoping someone's got me, then you caught me as soon as I did
When we started talking you did lots more than I could have wished
And it was something shocking, it was awesome, you were quite the gift, shit

[Chorus]
If I could find a way to word it
Then it'd be a little easier to let a single person
And know the more I do a part of me continues worsening
But maybe I'm just scared to open up cause I'll get hurt again
The truth of me is surfacing, still feel like a burden, but
One day I might accept that I can't help, but just be nervous
And I wonder if it's worth it or if we're birds of a feather
Scared to open up, but not so much when we're together