“Bill$” is the fifth track within Ryan Caraveo’s “Butterfly Boy” album, which the song goes on to simply describe a will to spend money on intoxicating substances or thrills rather than necessities such as bills. The fatigue of living a monotonous lifestyle that is rather depressing and stressful, a...
[Intro]
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
[Verse 1]
I don't care if all my debts settled
I'm dealing with an upset devil, tryin' to get my head level
Indulging all my vices
Until I'm cold and lifeless
What I call Monday morning
Some people call a crisis
Repeated losses leads to complete exhaustion
The kind that becomes routine when you get defeated this often
It's awful so you just detach
Shit is complete trash
I need to heal, I don't need cash
[Pre-Chorus]
Every day when I open my eyes, I feel stuck, I feel stuck
I don't know why I even try to wake up, to wake up
[Chorus]
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
[Verse 2]
If you pissin' me, listen to this PSA
I don't wanna be this cold, it's just in my DNA
It's not malicious either, it's like a vicious fever
Baby girl lift my mood, I wish I could just see her
Attention deprivation gives the sense of desolation
So when you self-destruct, you don't regret the detonation
It's more like finally, no one gonna lie to me
Ooh, I just won the lottery
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
I get a taste when my face hit the pillow case
But then it vanish like vanity at an old age
Don't be surprised if I go the Anna Nicole way
[Pre-Chorus]
Every day when I open my eyes, I feel stuck, I feel stuck
I don't know why I even try to wake up, to wake up
It's like one big lie when I apologize for who I am, for who I am
I say sorry for what I did, then do it all again, all again
[Chorus]
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Bill$ was written by Ryan Caraveo.
Bill$ was produced by Teal Douville.
Ryan Caraveo released Bill$ on Fri Aug 23 2019.