Big Sad

[Verse 1: Olivia]
I cannot speed it up
But I can slow it down
The pace at which I let it all spill out
I am staring at the exit
I know the pathway to the door
But everybody knows I love a detour

[Pre-Chorus: Olivia]
I'm throwing tantrums
I'm picking fights with everyone I love

[Chorus: Olivia & Carol]
It's becoming clearer and clearer
Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder
It's becoming clearer and clearer
Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder

[Verse 2: Olivia]
I liked it when I slammed the car door in your face
I stood up our best friends
And left you there to explain
There is no dignity in self-selecting out of love
But I swear it's the only option
The moment the sadness comes

[Pre-Chorus: Olivia]
I'm throwing tantrums
I'm picking fights with everyone I love

[Chorus: Olivia & Carol]
It's becoming clearer and clearer
Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder
It's becoming clearer and clearer
Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder

[Bridge: Olivia & Carol]
Choosing the small sad for longer does no favors
Choosing the big sad for shorter sucks on paper
Then I wait with you, tell the truth
'Til I'm ugly crying
That didn't help to call myself 'ugly' while I'm crying
I'm pretty, I'm brave
And I did the best that I could today

[Outro: Olivia]
It's becoming clearer and clearer
Avoiding a hard thing is actually harder