BEYOND MY THOUGHTS

LYRICS:
Yeah i think that its sickening
The way i just be thinking things
Am i playing a mental game
Am i just a fuckin pawn

Cannot tell my right from wrong
Feelin different all along
Sitting writing fuckin songs
After that i hit my bong

And they constantly
Watching me
But they will not say a word
And they see me as a fuckin loner stoner doing work

Is this pain all deserved and
Will my verses ever be heard
Are they only gonna play
My music when i leave this earth

And to whom it may concern
I really dont feel like living
But im kickin
So my future wife and all our fuckin children
Gon have houses to live in
They'll have good lives and intentions
So while i try not to end it
Im hoping that i'll be winning

Empty wallets and pockets
And i ain't going to college
And i been living with knowledge
That i will never be acknowledged

Im too honest
But im never fuckin fine
Its a sign of the times
Cause every fucking night
I keep on hoping that i die

When im facing the facts
Got me thinking im trash
Man i feel so invisible
But that feelings just typical

And the drugs are medicinal
Cause they help me through my pain
I will never understand why this world
Is full of hate

Got me thinking and drinking
Cause im beyond all my thoughts
Taking shots
Feeling lost
Just holdin onto what i got

Nothing left in the end of me
Got me sippin my hennessy
World im living is fantasy
Everybodys my enemy

I been drained of my energy
And the scars keep on diggin deep
When the reaper come finish me
I will pass away blissfully

Suicidal
And the pain in waves its tidal
Wishin i could be my idols
I dont want that fuckin title
But its such a vicious cycle