Better Than I’ve Ever Been

[Ay]
[Yo, I don’t know what the fuck I do on these man, like come on bro, I mean]
[Okay, um]
[Look]

They drop hints, we slide and surround premises
My style villanous, sinners just sound dissonant
Like devout Christians, that's prayin’ without ministries
Counting dividends, how I discount instruments

Most of y’all my kids while I ruin a child’s innocence
Look for something real in a girl and I found silicon
The crowd vigilant, every time I endow penmanship
No blanks, these is four five rounds by them [?]

Way I eat, wrappers on me, you would think I love track
Back cracker, how I have been sitting upright
When I was single, I was moving like a dog
I was cutting all the time but I never had a love life

Look, homiе, all I ever had was one sight
Prеtty women who was down to have a fun night
Since I was a kid, I was raised ‘round the drug addicts
And my brud bring the static if the plug, like

They don’t wanna face facts, they just put on face tats
Women see the gram and now they tryna get their waist snatched
Pussy in the camera, do whatever to obtain that
They lose self-esteem and think that money can replace that

Listen
Homie I respect the hustle
I see folks for who they are, do my best to never judge ‘em
Ay
‘Cuz we all got demons
Even I got lots of habits that I can’t break neither

You talkin’ crazy to yourself and now you feel like a fool
Cuz you been losing every single fucking day to that pool
Obsessive attraction
To unhealthy distractions
The first sip make you feel like all your stress didn’t happen, uh

And they can’t go where we hang coats
Shawty like girls, eat it out and taste rainbows
Said she’d like to make a flick with me like she J-Lo
Bro ain’t ever hoop, we put a 40 like dang no

Man, how the fuck could you feel me?
You clean living, bitch I come home everyday feeling filthy
Just off lines, you should know that you can’t play with me really
Can tell y’all hate me, think those compliments y’all make ‘em conceal it it don’t

I hear what they say
I laugh it away
Sometimes I go to bed
Thinking that I’d be better off dead

Gone are the days I was fuckin for sport
Or ride around the whips unregistered on this shot
Sometimes my love leaks by the ones I adored
And I got the most to say to the ones I ignored

Y’all in everybody else business other than yours
Come and get yo bitch tryna tug at my shorts
On the day my gram died, I felt like something was born
Same thing with Cody’s court case but fuck it, we bought

I was ten when they tried to charge my pops for them pills
It’s why y’all hear me on these songs steady poppin’ shit still
That man taught me more shit than he done prolly forgot
I couldn’t ask God for a better father for real

He made the most outta nothing so we toast to whatever
If it’s just another Sunday we both spend together
It wasn’t always like this, we both doing better
Yeah, it took a lotta time, diamonds glow through the pressure

I could write more but I’d probably cry
What made me who I am left me traumatized
Cuz this the part of me that’s down to do a homicide
Ariana Grande, my chopper swinging side to side

Sorry, got too real, bet it’d fuck up my play
Somebody prolly left a comment that’s gon fuck up my day
Wish these voices in my head would get the fuck out my way
I turn to drinking, son I’m prolly getting fucked up today

It throw me off when these people in my DM acting starstruck
Like I ain’t just gotta put the decals off trucks
I’m married now, all my rebounds lost touch
If I made it, bet they’d say that it was all luck

“Oh it could have been this guy, no it should have been that one”
I’m scared to find out who would treat me different if I ever go platinum
Or try to distract ‘em
Go through all the compliments to try to retract ‘em

Uh, yeah, it’s hard to love myself
Please don’t wish me well
Cuz I don’t deserve it
My mind is my jail
Please don’t post my bail cuz
I ain’t you, I’m unearthly
Prolly go to hell
And I lay all observant

So many things that I’d do different
There’s too much pain, so I’ve been simping
Don’t say my name when I don’t listen, yeah

Hard to love myself
I feel like I’m dirty
Please don’t wish me well
I’m too undeserving