​better off

Think it was…
2021 march to april
When i finally lost control
Everything was painful
I shut my eyes and my ears
Cuz i was living in fear
I thought i'd be better off alone
If no one was near

Every night i’d go to bed
Asking myself why i've been upset
And all these voices in my head said
I can’t go back cuz the past is dead

I hated people, disloyal and sinful but
Who was i to say when i'm the one to blame

Invited to a place just to leave in disgrace
I guess i was the party pooper that they would all hate
Cuz of depression, impressions of me were bad
That’s why i didn't talk for days, it's not that i was mad
I really wish we haven’t met

Slowly grew apart as we grew older
But the song u used to play is stuck in my head
Don’t know why i love to be a loner
Cuz when nobody is there, i can cry in my bed

Oh i am sorry
For being cold to u
There was so much i could do
To love u more

So don’t u love me
Don’t want to hold onto
What we’ve both just gone through
We’re better off