- better if I died

[Chorus:]
Everything would just be better if I died
Make things right, I swear to god I fucking tried
And I always told the truth when they always lied
I died inside every time went I and cried

[Verse 1:]
I never wanna see what’s going on in my head
I’m thinking of myself waking up and being dead
I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say
It’s hard to show affection when ur dying everyday
If I’m gonna die I’m gonna leave behind all my pain
Leave an origami on my body, in the heavy rain
I hope my dreams carry on when I’ll be gone
I hope no one misses me and they will move on
Will u love me even when I hate myself the most?
Will u trust me when I go, will u love me as a ghost?
Will I ever be the someone that I just wanna be
Will I die in the making? I‘ll just wait and see
If I sleep then I found my peace
Rest my soul and I know I’ll find myself at ease
And I sit in my room and I have no one to call
Don’t look for flaws in me baby, u will find them all

[Chorus:]
Everything would just be better if I died
Make things right, I swear to god I fucking tried
And I always told the truth when they always lied
I died inside every time went I and cried

[Verse 2:]
Never eat, never sleep, I can never fully function
I’m lowkey every side, I’ll never let them get some
I’ll go be by myself and mess up the scene
2019, was 16, started chasing dreams
I’m still tryna die, still tryna find some hope
I’m still tryna find a way on how to fucking cope
I know my end is at the end of this rope
Black lungs I smoke up all my dope
I smoke one more and I let the pain come in
They don’t see me coming, they don’t know where the fuck I’ve been
I’ll fake that everything’s okay, to start off my day
Tryna live, tryna die, never matters anyway
I’m feeling everything, I’m feeling restless
I’m tryna make a sense out of everything that’s senseless
I still hate myself, still feeling helpless
Put an end to this so I can finally be painless