Better for U

Wanted to be better
(I'm stuck in my memories)

Should have sent you a letter
(See you in my daydreams)

New belt, new sweater
(I be flexing)

Gotta keep my shit together
I ran away 'cause it's better for you
And I'm asking myself do I matter to you
I wish I did but I know it's a lie
When we talk I leave my demons behind
(Fuck)
But its whatever
Body cold like a night in December
Tryna be with us but you're not a member
I see clear but my mind is censored
Do you remember? We made a promise to be better
And you said we will always be together

Whatever
Whatever

Broke my heart but I broke your conscience
Gotta stay together 'cause we had a promise
When the world turns black I hide behind my shadow
When you had fun I was here getting narrow
Used to love your touch but now it feels like an arrow
Can I just grow up and feel like an adult

I feel like a child
Writings songs all the time

I don't care if its perfect
Write another song is it worth it
Got bad thoughts they are circling
Born in this world with no purpose
Wrote a sad song now I serve it
Had a good mind but you cursed it

Praying to god but I'm not a Christian
Who should I turn to do you even listen
Don't wanna sleep my nightmares consistent
Bleeding inside it feels like prison

You don't know how it feels
But I gotta keep it real
Broke my heart so now I keep it sealed

Broke my heart but I broke your conscience
Gotta stay together 'cause we had a promise
When the world turns black I hide behind my shadow
When you had fun I was here getting narrow
Used to love your touch but now it feels like an arrow
Can I just go up and feel like an adult