[Verse 1]
In the window, there’s a girl
And she screams to the Gods above
She begs please to be released
But she’s just left shouting louder
’Cause in her melancholy world
All the colours are fading and run
From this disease, she can’t find peace
For one day, one minute or hour
Maybe she knows that life is a joke
So she spins like a whirling dervish for love in a stranger’s eyes
She drinks ’til the morning light
[Chorus]
’Cause behind her smile
There’s a clown and he laughs
With an evil that swallows you whole
Making fun of her every day
But there’s nowhere to run away
Behind her smile
There’s a demon who’ll dance
On the pieces left of her soul
Keeps reminding her every day
That it’ll always be this way
[Verse 2]
You will find her next to you
She’s disguised in ribbons and bows
With perfect nails, she never fails
To be the life, the soul, the party
And though her heart is painted blue
In the crowd, there’s no one who knows
Run off the rails, she tips the scales
Yeah, she laughs but life weighs heavy
[Chorus]
’Cause behind her smile
There’s a clown and he laughs
With an evil that swallows you whole
Making fun of her every day
But there’s nowhere to run away
Behind her smile
There’s a demon who’ll dance
On the pieces left of her soul
Keeps reminding her every day
That it’ll always be this way
[Bridge]
She turns on the taps
And wonders how to drown herself today
Wonders if she’ll make it out okay
Hopes that the cold will soon be over
She rolls back the sheets
And tries her best to find another way
To make it to another lonely day
Hopes to God the clown will not expose her
Behind Her Smile was produced by Budo.
Betsy released Behind Her Smile on Wed Jun 17 2020.
I wrote “Behind Her Smile” during a particularly difficult time for me. It confronts battling with depression and anxiety and the inner demons that taunt you on a daily basis, with the knowledge that, though some days will be better than others, you can never beat the daemon, but to the outside worl...