Beginner

Sometimes I feel like I'm running in circles
Don't understand why I'm turning around
Sometimes I look for a way I could follow
There must be things that I still haven't found

Sometimes I wait for a message from heaven
I raise my head but I'm too blind to see
Sometimes I try to be bigger than others
I try to run but they're following me

How many ways undercover
How many days will I suffer
I'm not a saint and I'm not a sinner
Lord I'm still a beginner
How many years in the shadows
Waiting for the sun to rise
I'm not gonna lose and I'm not a winner
Lord I'm still a beginner

Sometimes I'm sure that I'm doing the right thing
And then I'm lost in the depths of my soul
Sometimes mistakes help to feel a bit better
And then I cry while I carry the day

Still a beginner
How many days
How many ways