Before the Ship Sinks

[Intro]
[?] I don't know if [?] repeating that melody or like [?] floating around in there

[Chorus]
I pour another round, get my head straight
I'm looking all around, it's a checkmate
I'm tryna hold it down in the best way
And trying not to drown if this ship sinks
But we gon' be alright, we gon' be fine (we gon' be alright, we gon' be alright)
We gon' be alright, we just need time (we gon' be alright, we just need time)
We gon' be alright, we gon' be fine (we gon' be al-, fine)
But I'll be holding on for the meantime (I'll bе holding on for the-)

[Verse]
Sometimes I wish I had a frеsh start
A clean slate, can I press start?
I've been constantly obsessing 'bout the future feeling stupid
Unaware that I've been living through the best parts
My cousin Mark called my line, he said he proud of me
I won't forget the night he called me, I was sound asleep
I could barely hear a word, just the sound of weeps
His dad died unexpectedly, fuck
He already lost his moms, what the fuck is going on?
He barely twenty-four, I'm tryna tell him, "stay strong"
Like I understand, but I don't understand shit
That's why I never judge on how another man lives
The trauma in your brain takes up all the bandwidth
Tryna heal the pain, apply another bandage, huh
I was sipping whiskey 'til I dozed off
It helps me open up, I'm usually closed off
I always thought suppressing my emotions was the proper thing to do
I never knew that I was so off
Parents never taught me
They were fighting demons, so my older brother watched me
We don't talk a lot, but I know he's always got me
We been through the same shit
You don't chose the hand, I guess that's just the way the game is
Man, we always made it work
Overthinking shit, that only made it worse
I used to write a verse and be late to work
I had to do whatever it would take to work
Been through real shit, this ain't rehearsed
I told 'em I'ma be the one to break the curse

[Chorus]
I pour another round, get my head straight (get my head straight)
I'm looking all around, it's a checkmate (it's a checkmate)
I'm tryna hold it down in the best way (tryna hold it down in the-)
And trying not to drown if this ship sinks (trying not to drown)