Before My Heart Attack

Long before my heart attack, I vow to set things straight
Certain times we all relate in speech we imitate
All the words I wish I'd penned, the thoughts gone unexpressed
The illiterate novelist of memoirs meaningless

The chameleon that lies in the sun
A mysterious soul to no one
Identifying, identify me

Long before my will was dead, I saw my message spread
Entrusting nearly everyone, the king of fools I led
Confined to boundaries I half confessed to all my wary guests
Long before my heart arrest I'll tell them who I am

It's a symptom of being alone
When your house never feels like a home
Searching for someone, I need a confidant

Called a reward of intimacy, somehow it eluded me
Someone to love you no matter what you need
Before my heart attack I'm coming clean without looking back
No more pretending, no more denying truth
No more pretending, no more denying you