Been Drowning

[Verse 1]
I'm in a dark place, reachin' for the light
Feel alone and lost, drinkin' every night
Forgot who I was, I been out of sight
So I'm out of mind, almost out of life
This intoxication ain't workin' for me
Swear to God, all I wanna do is quit
Wakin' up again with a hangover
Yeah, I feel like dyin' but I'm used to it, and it's

[Verse 2]
Tearin' me down day after day
Feel like I'm drownin', playin' with fate
Talkin' in clouds, ashamed when I pray
I need to get out, but take me away
This is me becomin' vulnerable
Because I'm feelin' weakness and no it ain't cool
Everyone lookin' at me to be strong
But I'm only human, what you want me to do?

[Verse 3]
God, I'm confused
Why am I drinkin' again? What's the purpose?
I got some demons deep under the surface
Tried to quit so many times, it ain't workin'
Like, I don't expect everything to be perfect
So what am I tryin' so hard to escape?
So many secrets, been keepin' 'em safe
Don't nobody know me or what I became (Damn)

[Verse 4]
I just wanna make things right again
And let go of everything that it might've have been
The devil been knockin' and knockin'
And I coulda stopped him, instead, I invite him in
I'm a sick person, no this isn't worth it
Only gettin' worse and listen, this is urgent
Tryna picture Burden in a different version
Only one I'm hurtin' is me

[Pre-Chorus]
No, I don't ever ask for help, but I'm killin' myself
You know I'll keep takin' shots 'til there's no liquor on the shelf
When I feel sad or I feel lonely at the bar, I tell them pour me up
Another one to take away the pain that I felt

[Chorus]
Lately, I been drowning
Drowning, drowning
Yeah, I been drowning
Drowning, drowning

[Post-Chorus]
And I said, "What is one too many?
Too many's never enough"
I admit that I'm addicted
I wish I could give it up

[Verse 5]
I'm killin' this bottle 'cause I'm feelin' hollow
Forget what is real 'til I wake up tomorrow
All the regrets and they go all to sorrow
Their life is too short and, no, time isn't borrowed
My heart has been broken, it's cold and it's frozen
So things go unspoken, abuse my emotions
I need an escape, it's a poison, a potion
It starts with a drink and the door is just open

[Verse 6]
So many people know just how it feel
But I feel alone if I'm keepin' it real
All of my homies who do really know me
The only be tellin' me I need to chill
I tell 'em I will but you know the drill
Always runnin' back to bad habits
Reality slippin', I don't want to grab it
The things that I been through, they really are tragic

[Verse 7]
I don't know what it's gonna take or what I gotta do to
For me to put it down and walk away from the booze
It's tough on my pride, I'm givin' you the truth
Like I am no better or different from you
I'm a hurt person, I'm a damaged soul
I'm a outcast, I'd rather be alone
Alcoholism coulda been passed down
From my momma, really I don't know

[Verse 8]
Talk to somebody, for me it don't help
But the liquor and spirits, I'm under they spell
I wanna break free and it's easy to tell
'Cause I feel like, lately, I'm livin' in hell
You can judge me if you want to
But I ain't below you or above you
Listen, I wrote this song for anybody
Who know what alcohol and drugs do

[Pre-Chorus]
No, I don't ever ask for help, but I'm killin' myself
You know I'll keep takin' shots 'til there's no liquor on the shelf
When I feel sad or I feel lonely at the bar, I tell them pour me up
Another one to take away the pain that I felt

[Chorus]
Lately, I been drowning
Drowning, drowning
Yeah, I been drowning
Drowning, drowning

[Post-Chorus]
And I said, "What is one too many?
Too many's never enough"
I admit that I'm addicted
I wish I could give it up