Been Down So Long

[Verse]
Shit's been shifting since the raincoat
And ya'll been listening for a minute like a pay phone
And I'm so fucking grateful
Ain't no sun and rainbows
But rain comes and rain goes
I stay up don't lay low yeah aye
I still fake stuff but oh well
Getting messages telling him bout their mental health
In realising that I represent more then myself
I tripped and fell and stumbled
Treating gutters like they're wishing wells
So wish me well, they're bringing hell but I ain't fazed by it
I used to love rap but now I'd rather stay quiet
I was a rugrat but ever since that shit with Jacob
Had me quaking bugging like don't touch me bro
I stay whiling, yeah
It's been a while since I felt normal
I've been oppressing all offensive thoughts my head morphs to
I say I get it but the message never felt awful
So fuck all you, yeah
And I ain't got to be this earnest like I'm hording wealth
Storing all your fucking burdens just destroys yourself
I'm trying not to be a hermit, that ain't forming well
Ironically became a shell of my former self
Yeah I think I lost my fucking backbone
I'm still tryna catch a break from a bad throw
I'm still staring in mirrors to face my demons
I think it's fair to say that everyone's conceded yeah
But I don't voice my opinions or at least not as often
Now I just sit there and listen cause I'm afraid of your comments
And that's as real as it's getting, yeah that is brutally honest
And if I say it I lived it, could give a fuck bout a prophet
Could give a fuck bout a movement, shit is useless
I learnt self love should only come from fucking self improvement
I learnt solace and consistence but I never get it back
I've got problems with commitment or I get way to attached
I've got demons I've been facing
Finding meaning and complacence
You can see it in my face since
I've been sleeping on the daily
I ain't fiending bitch I'm patient
I've been feasting like I made it
Making meetings, no mistake
It's my season I can taste it