Beauty In The Breakdown

[Sample: Frou Frou]
'Cause it's all going off without you
Excuse me, too busy?
Oh, writing your tragedy
These mishaps you bubble wrap
When you've no idea what you're like

[Verse 1]
Ridin' around in a Semi
Poppin these pills till the bottle is empty
Limpin' around cause my legs feel heavy
Fallin asleep as the lean hits my belly
Murder on my mind and I feel like Melly
Hope they don't lock me up like they did R. Kelly
It doesn't matter if what you did was right or wrong
They just want an excuse to put you away for long
Sitting in the class, all alone
And that's when I heard thе ring from the phone
I picked up thе phone and I asked what's wrong
They told me that my grandfather's gone
Some wounds just don't heal with time
It's been five years and I don't feel fine
I think about it every night, I still can't believe that he had died
I always thought he'd be alive to watch me now and watch me shine
He made a promise to me and I guess he lied
Cause he turned his back and then he died
I been through a lot of shit in my life
I never thought he'd be the one to bite
I'm sippin slowly driving at night
My mind is pacing, I'm flying through life
Whenever I'm hurt, I go to the pints
Cause they're the only thing that sets my mind right
I drown myself in dirty Sprite
To make some money, gotta serve some white
Cause I can't get a job, and that's just how life
Tends to go, if it don't go your way you gotta make it your own
People spend their lives chasing gold, but don't even know what is their goal
People slowly lose their souls, pursuing a life that isn't whole
They have empty lives and empty homes, and that's why they got nowhere to go
I know too well that life's too short, so that's why I keep a gun in these shorts
I know if one thing goes wrong, I'll end up in the new's reports
And I don't wanna die before I ever reach my highest points