Beautiful Machine

I’m open minded but it doesn’t seem to change a thing
I’m being blinded by the things that I’m remembering
I’m somehow beside myself the high I felt is wearing off
I’m safe inside my shell it’s better when I’m not with you
I’m staying sober staring daggers deep into your head
The game is over all the things I wish I could’ve said are
Somehow irrelevant the past has come and gone again
It’s getting colder so I lock myself away from you

Please, you don’t know how it hurts me
And I want to believe
But I don’t know what it means
My beautiful machine

I’m breaking promises I should’ve broken years ago
I’m pushing shots into the blood of the ethereal
I’m not sure if I’m still making sense I’m losing track of time
I’ll die of arrogance it’s better when I’m not with you

Please, you don’t know how it hurts me
And I want to believe
But I don’t know what it means
My beautiful machine