Beautful Mess

Life is a beautiful mess
They ask me how I'm holding up I said I'm doing my best
I would love to just go back to the usual stress
But the shit gets escalated when you losing a best friend
I'm putting on my suit for the wrong reasons
Feeling like it's bout to be a long season
Put the visa through the credit card reader
I been spending all my money give a fuck about it either
Fuck an overdraft I'm over that bought a fifth and throw it back
Throw it up then do it all again cuase I been holding back

Tears I've been holding back and fears I been holding back
Bracing for the hit but God forgot to give me shoulder pads
A helmet ain't gonna help for the blows and getting high as fuck
Surely ain't gonna help for the lows
I been up and at em early I was setting some goals
But this a set back I had to sit back in my zone
All the shit that just happen got me feeling alone
Just when I started to get comfortable and feeling like home
Fuck
I think we need more loving
But more importantly we need a reset button, more importantly we need a rest button this the type that really make me start bugging God

Life is a beautiful mess
They ask me how I'm holding up I said I'm doing my best
I would love to just go back to the usual stress
But the shit gets escalated when you losing a best friend
What more can I can say looking up to God like how much can I pray
Talking to myself like how much more can I take
Being positive ain't easy trying hard not to break
I got my guard up feeling like a target
Frozen and I'm speechless you would think I'm fucking star struck
But get up out my way ain't nobody gonna stopping me now

I'll fuck the whole game up when me and Rocky in town
Homie I ain't got my feet wet yet
I'm about to shoot from long range without my feet set
They ain't take it serious I'll show em
I'm a deep threat this a sneak peak to the peak
I haven't reached yet, each step I'm getting closer
Every breath I'm getting older
I would love to get some closure
I know you somewhere on this earth where the energy live
But in the mean time I'll store you where my memory is
I know you somewhere on this earth where the energy live
But in the mean time I'll store you where my memory is

Life is a beautiful mess
They ask me how I'm holding up I said I'm doing my best
I would love to just go back to the usual stress
But the shit gets escalated when you losing a best friend