Battling My Spirit

[Intro]
Who made this beat?
Feel like niggas want me gone, that shit crazy
I've even got to look at my family different (Twysted Genius, baby)
Shit never had to be like this

[Chorus]
I've been battling with myself ('Self), battling with my spirit ('Pirit)
I been talking out loud to God, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had niggas change up on you, so you wouldn't know the feeling (Feeling)
My mama said I need love (Love), but I just need some healing (Healing)
I done lost some loved ones I loved the most, that shit made me hate love (I hate it)
I don't even want to be close to my fans, I don't want no hugs (Yeah)
Had to boss up to get my business straight, but I still hang around thugs ('Round goons)
I just want the money (Yeah), I don't want the love

[Verse]
My brother work three jobs and he living check by check (Check)
And that shit hurt my heart and I just hope that I'm not next (On God)
I done seen real niggas turn fake, I done seen fake niggas get praised
I done seen bad bitches get on, I done seen boss bitches get laid
I hope my son don't grow up like me, so just be a man (Yeah)
But he only one, so I know he don't understand (He don't)
Niggas I grew up with gon' try to kill cause who I am (Yeah)
My grandma said she pray for me she just tell me to keep my head, high
Niggas try to slide (Slide) once or twice (Slide)
All them niggas seen want some red dots (Dots)
My little nigga a stepper (Step)
He been playin Call of Duty too much all he want is some headshots
We drink Wock pints to the head (Wock)
I made a opp bitch give me head (Head)
Fuck that heart, just want my bread (I just want bread)
I know niggas want me dead, so I keep winnin' ahead
I didn't realize what you said

[Chorus]
I've been battling with myself ('Self), battling my spirit ('Pirit)
I been talking out loud to God, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had niggas change up on you, so you wouldn't know the feeling (Feeling)
My mama said I need love, but I just need some healing
I done lost some loved ones I loved the most, that shit made me hate love
I don't even want to be close to my fans, I don't want no hugs
Had to boss up to get my business straight, but I still hang around thugs
I just want the money, I don't want the love

[Outro]
Yeah, yeah
I've been battling with myself, battling my spirit
I been talking out loud to God, I just hope he hear it
You ain't never had niggas change up on you, so you wouldn't know the feeling
My mama said I need love, but I just need some healing