ballad of ribbons

[Verse 1]
My friends said to let you go—that's probably some good advice
I let you walk into my life over a hundred times
I toss and turn up in my bed like almost every night
Your texts pop up inside my phone, and now I'm paralyzed
How could you say I deserve it? I gave you a chance
How could you tell me it's love, just tryna make an advance?
I took a bite of that apple you gave me, my blood turns cold
You're looking at me now— it's hard to breathe, that's how you wanted me

[Chorus]
Can't forget you for the rest of my life, it's annoying
Everywhere I go, it's your voice I'm ignoring
Kiss me on my lips till I'm sick with a virus
Bury me in iris because it's your favorite
Don't matter where I go, don't matter who I see
Can't be 'round no one else, I wanna live a fantasy
Can't ever leave my bed, 'cause all I wanna do is dream
Black ribbons on my grave, still breathing when they bury me

[Verse 2]
I know I'm convenient, I know you need it
I'm not what you wanted, but you don't seem to mind
Wait a couple months till I get attached and
Wipe out the memories from outta your mind
What's he got that I don't got? Just say it to my face
Pick up where you left off every time he goes away
You wanna call it love—I call it a mistake
This feeling that I had ain't one I could just replicate

[Chorus]
Can't forget you for the rest of my life, it's annoying
Everywhere I go, it's your voice I'm ignoring
Kiss me on my lips till I'm sick with a virus
Bury me in iris because it's your favorite
Don't matter where I go, don't matter who I see
Can't be 'round no one else, I wanna live a fantasy
Can't ever leave my bed, 'cause all I wanna do is dream
Black ribbons on my grave, still breathing when they bury me