Bad Vices

Alright lets play a game its called depression but let me warn you it might become an unhealthy obsession
What a waste fuck mate i can't even face them with my face always in a mask tryina fit in so now im confessin in my art my vice
But now its vice versa cause im the one coursin all the pain but i know how it feels so i ain't going through it again so i put on my plastic face and taking aim
I say i ain't Catholic but i find my self prayin every time my head goes to layin down its defence
See if i was a real man my life would be done but i ain't that kinda one im weak but one day ill hit my peak and hang myself on this rope my rhyme tide for me but i really don't have time for this shit i gotta find my happiness soon or they gonna ban me from this radio but i can't find happiness from the abyss

Everyone tellin me im genetically superior cause im white blonde and thin when really im just feelin inferior
I felt like nothing so id put these masks on so i could just feel something cause when i started writing these rhymes i would hide them but i think its about time that i show you my scars instead of hiding them behind these bars

See Depression is my obsession
I just wanna be sad all the time so just let me write my rhyme

See i was just another generic white boy listin to em
But really Im a lyricist in disguise cause ive already been through my demise this is my inspiration so fuck the standing ovation thats not how im judgin my raps cause im not goin on the attack i just wanna save 1 life weather its me or you ill do it tonight

So im sorry for bring you down but i guess i had to get it off my chest
So this is how imma end the song sorry its too long ill keep writin till the end of my life weather its sooner or later i honestly hope its later but hope a funny thing if you hold it to hard it it seems to just leave in an envelope stamped and signed for next time the future you may need but the future me don't exist because he just consists of the current me 6 foot under and im tryna change the udder disappointment that ive become but honestly i just want to run

Can you keep a secret like just keep it between you and me ive never told anyone not even my girlfriend she worries but i tell her ive had it harder so dont worry but really im just tryna say sorry for everything i kept from you i swept it undder the rug till our relationship got hung out to dry
So im sorry cause really i didn't try

Ive let my friends and family down
I gotta thank them all for stayin around
Gotta let em know that its not them that fucked up thats on me
I need to let em know that i love them all and now im on the other side give them all of me
Depression became my obsession no drugs no alcohol it was the biggest killa of all
So im fessin up im sorry but now that im back i guess its time to release this rap