Bad Man

Was raised right, but grew up into a monster/
Influenced by the music, the fluid and the ganja/
It wasn't you momma, pops did his job too/
You can't hide from the demons thats inside you/
Momma always said, "one of you boys is an addict"/
I dont know yet, guess I'm still working at it/
Still searching how to get out of this lifestyle/
Wasting my days slaving got me turning to a night owl/
Right out of a high, to a low/
Ask me why? i dont know/
And i try to control/
But I can't get a hold of my anxiety still/
So I'm swimming in bottles while I'm fishing for pills/
I wish I could chill/

I'm a Bad Man momma...

My brother just had a baby/
I just got a maybe for a big gig, and shit they might pay me/
We all hype ain't we YALL/
No it ain't a new life, but this could be the new life that I been waiting on/
Banking on something to change/
So I can give my family something to say/
So they ain't blushing with shame/
When my name comes up in the conversation/
At another congregation, bet they bring me up in moderation/
So they ain't stuck explaining
Where I'm almost at, and why I'm never around/
And why I still ain't settling down/
And my head is in the clouds/
I ain't lettin up, but I'm lettin em down/
I need to put this medicine down/

I'm a Bad Man momma...

My brother just popped the question, I just popped a pill/
No it ain't at no church, but my name is ringing bells/
I think I'm doing well, they think I'm in a well, just wishin/
To them I'm only on the net = swishin/
Cuz they ain't seen me in months, or heard my voice/
So they asking how I'm doin when they run into my boys/
Running out of poise, I want em unaware/
I don't want em knowing I'm the son they wanna fear/
I'm hiding skeletons, my closet a haunted house/
I grab a pair of airs and they all are falling out/
All the thought about if I does or if I doesn't/
Got me buzzing running to another subtance/
I'm buggin/

I'm a bad man momma