​bad impressions

(I'm just vibin' but I'm recording this for you, man)

[Verse 1]
A month that passes like a second with no comment
Living in the present
It's a box that lost it's contents
I wake up to their world
Where observations are nonsense
I wake up to their world
Where the truth is just too honest
I wake up to a world
Where everyone I know has lost it all
I wake up with the knowledge
That everyone I like is lost
I'm really okay with the pain and the costs
And they think I'm not sane
It's okay cus' I'm not
I said "Babe I'm a pain to you
See that I'm draining you"
Said I'm engrained in you
Get me away from you
I'm really okay
As I say while I'm crossed
Then you stare at my eyes
And you can tell I'm exhausted
You don't wanna be chained to me
I'm probably a stain to you
I can't contain, asking
How is it plain to you?
It's not to me
Grew up having bad rep
Look around me
Everybody chasing checks
I have no crew
Because the cliques just chase adrenaline and neck
Bitch I'm numb just like a sedative at best
And I'm pathetic cus' I leave the ones that love me for some rest
And Imma do it till I'm finally unaffected
By the ones who make me scared of getting left
And Imma do it till I'm finally unaffected
By the ones who make me check my fucking back like every second
And Imma cherish every laceration gratefully like someone who was made to take a lesson
Cus' I'm a masochist
And maybe I'm addicted to the people who can send a fucking message
I think I left a bad impression
Till the end, from the start
I'm the source of my depression
Build it up and tear it apart
Spill everything in the session

(Patient)
(Go)

[Chorus]
I don't
See love
As I used to anymore
Some part
Of my heart
Died to keep me alive
I dropped my guard
In the end
What was it for?
Some part
Of my heart
Died to keep me alive

[Verse 2]
It's probably cause
The light that was
Inside of me
Has given up
Well I'm not sure if it can be revived
(Be revived)
I'm mourning youth
This shit is tough
No innocence
No giving up
My heart ran dry so you can't be mine
(can't be mine)
It's kinda clear that you don't need me
It's pretty clear that I don't need you
It's kinda clear that you don't want me
It's pretty clear that I don't know what I want
Kno-kno-know what I want
Pretty clear that I don't know what I want
Anymore

[Chorus]
I don't
See love
As I used to anymore
Some part
Of my heart
Died to keep me alive
I dropped my guard
In the end
What was it for?
Some part
Of my heart
Died to keep me alive