Backwards

Everything I thought that I am
Suddenly caving in
Truth can only move me so far
And bring me around again

So I sit in the static
And the question comes in

What if I go backwards
Every time I think I'm getting closer?
Now and then I just can't help but wonder
Maybe this is over

If only for a moment or two
Let me be something new
I could see the good in my hand
And value in what I do

But I'm, not so sure it could happen
If I wanted it to

What if I go backwards
Every time I think I'm getting closer?
Now and then I just can't help but wonder
Maybe this is over

If I never get much closer
If I never see the day
If everything breaks and shatters, it's ok