Back Where You Began

Oh these days you look for judgement
In the eyes of every stranger
And you know it's the beginning of the end
Because it spreads like a disease
And the next thing you know
You detect it in the eyes of your friends

And you pull out all the weeds
From your yard
And fool yourself to think that they are gone
And you tell yourself you are gonna change
And you lose your self control again
And you're right back where you began

Well you look out of your window
And lock eyes with a neighbor
And try to simulate an honest grin
Then you search for his name
In the local directory
And realize you don't know where to begin

And the seasons seem to change overnight
But it stays the same inside
And you tell yourself you are gonna change
And you lose your self control again
And you're right back where you began

And lord knows I try
To understand what I see
And I was born with these eyes
Yet I overlook the meaning

And I separate the whites from the yolk
And I listened every time you spoke
And I tell myself I am gonna change
And I lose my self control again
And I'm right back where
I'm always there
I am right back where I began

Oh these days you look for judgement
In the eyes of every stranger
And you know it's the beginning of the end