​​awkward and i hate myself :(

[Verse]
Awkward and I hate myself
I wish you never saw it
I wish I was someone else
I'm weird and I can't help it
Don't think you wanna be here
But don't want me to feel lonely
Down bad, real bad since last year
Would feel better if you could hold me
It comes and it goes, these waves of emotions
Want you to know, you're better off without me
Swear I'd never see myself back here
And I've tried so hard since like last year
I've caved, don't care anymore
I'll be dead soon, I never learn
I'll be dead soon, I never, I never, I-I, I never
I'll be dead soon, I never learn (I never, never)
Comes and it goes, I'll be dead soon, soon-soon
These waves of emotions (Soon-soon)
Down bad, real bad since last year
Awkward and I hate myself
I wish you ne-ne-ne-ne (Ne)
Ne (Ne), ne (Ne), ne (Ne-ne-ne-ne-ne-ne-ne)