Autumn Kismet Rhapsody [BlewVerse]

I don't usually do this, but y'all asked me to so I'ma vent a little bit
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Verse 1:
The most perfect at odds can be uneven
Prettiest faces misleading, ‘cause looks can be deceiving
Some don’t even know the meaning of life
We just living for the moment, opportunities there, but we don’t want it
I’ve been haunted for years, all my regrets in the past
If I hurt you, forgive me, that’s all that I can ask
Watching time move faster by the decimal
Hiding the pain, I’m just tryna maintain my professionalism
Still trapped in a prism, Father forgive ‘em
If I die today I tried to be a peaceful organism
Listen, I’m just ventin’, but times gettin’ hard
It’s a cold world gettin’ tougher to believe in God
But I do, call me crazy, that won’t be the worst
They laugh when I said I choose love to disperse in my verse
Got ‘em right where it hurts so these paragraphs from my heart
Five years ago this woulda been dark for real
I let the clouds heal the scars that remain
Through the flame my brain became [?], yeah
And when the rain fall, I just make a prank call
“Destiny, you got a man?” Hang up if she says involved
We all got advice and most people hate advice
Wait, let me chill, watch some anime and play the rice
Fried to be exact, extra soy sauce for the flavor
Mom, I hate we ain’t close but thank you for the labor
I give ‘em more fragments, whatever’s left of me
Never gon’ forget the last time that you wept for me
I felt it, watched as the moon glared on that moment in time
Pause life, just me and you there and I do care
Girls say they don’t be knowin’ it
But I just got a funny way of showin’ it, ya know?

Verse 2:
Where’s Atlantis? I done had so many chances
Of drownin’ beneath abyss, I admit I seen glances of death
I came close to many, even suicidal thoughts
I done had plenty, down to my last penny
Overlooking me now
Granny, wish you was here, bet you woulda been proud
Arousing thoughts of freedom that I ain’t takin’ in vain
And leave certain colors but I still rank ‘em the same
Making piles of memories I cherish for lifelong
Connected to my spirit, more than verses and nice songs
I miss you when nights gone, I know that we just met
This song’s for you, see you soon Autumn Kismet