Autumn

[Verse]
You always acted like you cared
You always acted like you were actually there
You never thought of me once
I tried to run, it's hard when I'm getting grappled by love
And I know that you would try your best
But I'm guessing you had enough of it
Wasting your time with me as I'm here
And I'm really loving it
It sucks and this is new
When all I think about's you
You're hiding behind your makeup
And terrified of the truth
It started back when we were only little kids
Grade 5 and I acted like everybody else did
I thought I wouldn't amount to shit
But I saw you and still beautiful
Here we're going again, a love song, yeah as usual
Typical Zach, always staring at you in class
I finally got a phone just to text you and just to laugh
Remembering back, and I'm wondering if you miss me
I never believed in dreams until the day
You finally kissed me, I'm just...
I'm just nothing but a wreck
We reunited in grade 8 and that's when we'd always text
I'm always trying my best and I'd always just get rejected
Then I ask you again and question us where we're headed
You'd always make me your second, never first
When you finally found a dude my emotions fell for the worse
They fell much lower than dirt and you treated me like the best
You were taken and you ripped the heart right out of my chest, I...
I just hate seeing you talking and dating these other dudes
I'm watching your every move, I never thought that I'd lose
A girl as perfect as you, and I understand your feelings
I'm just not the one you choose, yeah I get it
Girl I really do
I'm surprised we made it this far, I'm always wondering who
Would steal your heart next, who you'd always manage to text
Who'd be sleeping there in your arms and who you'd always call the best
I'm not asking to take me back
You treat me like I'm the bad guy
Really? That makes me laugh
Cause really you have a sad life
Or maybe that could be me
Cause you screwed me over
And you damaged me permanently
I'm certainly nobody perfect, you're hurting me worse than ever
You're knowing my story and all you'll have is this letter
It's better than locking me down in your friendzone forever
Than to break myself out and just never, ever
Have to face you again
Cause honestly it's hard enough to just be friends
Can you look me in the eyes and say that you loved me?
Probably not, cause it's a lie, I would honestly die for you
That's more than true
And you would honestly die than be the one to tell me the truth
You were ruthless and you knew it, I'm honestly gonna lose it
Yet you're calling me useless and nothing more than a nuisance, AGH
I'm just your back up, I packed up, I'm fluctuating
Stuck inside your mind, losing time and I'm suffocating
I never said I was the best, those words came out of your mouth
And I'm putting those words to rest
I was blessed with every curse, that's honestly how I feel
I'm waking up in these dreams and I never know what is real
We used to have the world in common, I guessing that's not enough
I'm honestly losing patience, I'm trying to give you up
I'm like nascarring our past, because you left, you're never right
And honestly I thought that you would be the one girl of my life
The one that could show me the light and now I'm slowly going crazy
Everybody is fake, you've been changing a lot lately, maybe...
Maybe you and I, I'll get it together
I'm just so fractured from every lie
You honestly left me severed, I'm never knowing the placement
Trying to give my heart to you, but it's been taken
Lately I've been feeling sick
I'm just so tired of taking everyone's shit
You say you'll be right back, but when's that?
Fuck, I don't even know where we're at
I'm just...
I'm just needing the light
I'm need the right path leading me to meaningful life
And you were right, showing me that we would never work
And now we're nothing and I always feel like fucking dirt
It hurts knowing that we'll never be the same
Trapped in your friendzone is always bringing me pain
You tell em I'm one to blame, and never game em the truth
And now I'm hated by her, her, her and even you
What's more to lose?
I have a feeling of emptiness in my chest
I'm barely having a meaning
My conscious always depleating
I'm tempted inside your mind
I know you're wanting to text me
But where's the time right? Our love is finite
What's wrong with my life?
Sitting on the cornerstone of everything
It's not right
And when I'm losing my sanity
You're losing every memory
That you had of me
Honestly you search for happiness, I dearly hope you find it
Declining that one request, I treated you like a diamond
You're lying inside your mind, regretting you ever left me
Keeping it all together, but feeling empty
Damn