Audioclip-11_11_2017

[Spoken]
And you should be grateful that you're not a blank, there's nothing worse-
I've been dreaming of those summer nights
At the field that I used when we died
I remembered the reflection of the fire in your eyes and even though it was burning bright
It was you that was warm
We fell asleep in the light of dust
A summer love with an heavy breath of untamed lust
Teenage dreams, ripped jeans, midnight screams
I remember appreciating it
But at the same time wishing
You had your own interests, your own friends, and your own plans
Hoping it would relieve some of the pressure on me to be there, to be present
Because I have those things
And I couldn't always be there
I couldn't always be present
I remember appreciating you, but at the same time
Wishing you had your own interests, your own friends, and your own plans
Because I was the only thing you had and for me you weren't
And it made me feel like shit
[Sung]
And I'm hoping that you'll see there's only one thing that I need
And watching you as it dies
That fire's still burning in your eyes
Oh darling
Can you see
All the spaces that exist in between
And it's funny how the highs
Were so defined
You love me when I'm up but are lost when I am down
Oh darling
Can't you see
That need can melt tonight because I'm struggling to breathe
With thoughts of suicide
There's only one thing that will help me out of life
And it was in that moment
A girl slipped down the hill behind us
Inconsolable, she took that bauble and slowly sliced it across her wrist
I awoke
That was my one thing
I remember appreciating
Like there's only one thing that will help me out of time