At Your Disposal

Flashback to the past of unknown
None of my own
Trapped inside for life
He's there with white hair
Empty places fill with loneiness
He's tired of it's taste
Distorted frame of mind consumes
And hides the truth
Once again
He calls my name

Who am I
He left me paralyzed
What if i roll the dice
And nothing shows on its sides
Looking back again
He's standing there in the pouring rain
When i disappear another me appears
With no trace at all
It makes me realize that im replaceable
But i still cling to hope
That i could
Be your salvation

Say i faced the worst
Did i intend to
No i just had no clue
All should haves and could haves
Are eating up my brain so fast
All the wrong choices
Are laughing in my past
They keep on asking me
What have i done in here
Tonight tonight i'll make it all right
So kiss me good night
Im ready to let it go now
And he calls

Who am i
Im coming home alive
I tried to roll the dice
But nothin showed on its sides
Let me start again
Ill stand against the knowing pain
When i disappear
Another me appears
With no trace at all
It makes me realize that im replaceable
But i still cling to hope
That i could be your
Salvation