At Night It Still Remembers You

I've tried to release these chains but they're only getting tighter
Seems the walls close in sometimes but lately they're opening up wider
I'm realizing I was left behind while the rest of the world expands
Damn it's scary to be a phantom
Held up for ransom it's more fun in hell but the past comes
And it runs away quick
Shedding blood just one more slit to the wrist
Persistent under an otherworldly influence
An occult insistence on the perversion of my nervous fluid
I'm on probation haven't I paid my debts?
I've erased all the places that I've went
And when I reflect I see the pieces clearer
Can't remember the past
Only the mirror
We disappear [here]
There isn't a possible way to put it in verse
In multiple words I've struggled to search
All over the world when right along
You were the heart of the bubble that burst
The part of the rubble that burnt
Began to learn you can't see numbers in the dark
The street's a dream I'm driving toward a wrong turn

And there's nothing to look back to
The sky, the stars, distract you
Panic sets in as the one you must surrender to
At night it still remembers you

Punishment I bet you're having fun with this
Inevitably we are running in circles
I thought the line was straight?
Instead it’s the hurtful calm that lurks and waits
The fear that cured you of the disease
That brought you here in the first place
It gets dropped off and leaves
I couldn’t keep up with the seconds
They continue to leak out
Afraid of feeling desperate I have kept it
All to myself
Exceptionally bad timing
It has led me to believe
That there is no such thing as silence
I've sensed it in a Book of Golden Precepts
Must've been something I read went and did
That made this mess I seem to have inherited
Alone a death amends an end again
My Severance
I don't want another friend

Yet there's nothing to look back to
The sky, the stars, distract you
Panic sets in it's the one you must surrender to
At night it still remembers you