ASCEND

[Verse]
You went called me just the other day
Said you was alone and that you was afraid
It was 9PM, yeah, it was fucking late
You shoulda called me at at least half-eight
But fuck it, you my baby and I gotta show up
I'm always the one who buys you them glow-ups
And I got you that truck that you never use
I don't feel this connection, we used cheap, cheap glue
And you ain't ever leavin' clues
You want me dead, up-up on the news
You want my ashes buried in your shoes
You wanted to ascend, but tell me, how would you?
And you want my money to buy you that new house
All I ever wanted was to have you as my spouse
I thought that love was a tree and we a sprout
But fuck it, nothing ever turns out as we want
Yeah, and I feel like I'm floating in the ocean
I just myself a lover, but you not one
And I take you everywhere to get this shit in motion
And I thought that you'd be fun but you're not fun, uh
And I really, really, really wanna show you how to do shit
But you really, really, really want-want to bitch
And I really, really, really gave my all
But you really just wanted me to fall
But fuck it, that's how it always goes with these women, right?
You ain't want me no rights when we said "women's rights"
You telling me to die, you want me crucified
But maybe you was right, yeah, maybe I should die
Maybe I ain't a hero, I am just a sinner
I prayed to God forever, but it turned me to a killer
And I lost all the people close to me
I guess that's what happens when you devoted, see, uh
And I always thought that you was the one
The one person who could save me, love
But you just a mirage like the rest
And you always listen Nicki Minaj at your best, uh
So say that shit to me, you just want to ascend
In the end, what was the point?
I got us therapy to make amends, but I just went home and rolled a joint
I just want to end it, bitch, goodbye, oh
Who knew that lovers would fall?
Who knew I was the one who would end it all?
Oh, who knew that you'd give me a call?
Oh, who knew that you'd be the one who's sorry?
Who knew that I'd be the person at their best?
Uh, I'm a proud survivor and I'll say it with my chest, uh
You always wanted a knife at my neck, uh
So here, here you go, do it and lose your respect, uh
You want me dead, would that make you happy?
Uh, yeah, all the times that you made me feel crappy, uh
All the times you broke my heart
All the times I made art, Mozart
All the times you left me on read, uh-huh
All the times you cheated with my step, uh-huh
All the times you said you was my wed, uh-huh
All the times you made me cry in the shed, uh-huh
All the times you robbed me for my money
All the times I had a breakdown and you thought it was funny
All the times that you had cramps in your tummy
I cared for you, I got you everything you needed just for you to love me
But fuck it, yeah, all these bitches are traps
All they want is your money then they make you feel crap
Then they leave for the 'busers and they come right back
But you already broke my heart once, don't come back

[Outro]
And after that, I need therapy
I always thought that you wanted me, yeah
And after that, I need therapy
I just wanted you to marry me, yeah
And after that, I need therapy
I always thought that you wanted me, yeah
And after that, I need therapy
I just needed a happy-me, yeah