As Promised

I guess it show how little I know
When I'm thinking that we close but I've been sinkin in the boat
Built a kingdom of my own so I can sit in the throne
I shoulda drowned you in the mote
But you be thinking I won't
I wonder why I chose the path that I did
Just a promise that I made before I happened to live
Just a soul up in the stars trying to cash it all in
You see me making all these plans but God laugh at his kids
That's why I mastered my craft
Cause they tell you life a bitch until you ask her to dance
Made a milli off the game I never had in advance
Made the impossible happen so I can pass on the chance
On my turns I rose up when they praised words
A black rose where the ash grow I stay firm
I'm unaffected by the lack of credit
I've been the best who would've said it if I hadn't said it
Get the message
Is it me, am I smug to agree?
So much hate in my heart where's the love that I need
Why am I running from the things that I should love the most
What's here today is gone tomorrow so you should hold it close
It's easy said and harder done
I'm try to soak up in this evening sun
Breathing through these hardened lungs
It's like the end has just begun
Easy go easy come trust me though I'm not the one
I'm not the poet the preacher would of appointed
I come from the sin my skin burn if anointed
I find a pointless why we suffer for solace
Everyone come up short and argue bout who the tallest
So let's be honest we all stuck here regardless
So I'ma give you the truth
The whole truth
As promised