aren’t you proud?

[Verse 1]
And I spent too much time in love with the thought
And you said take your time because it's easy to not
When I cross your mind, is it painful to see me?
The image misleading, it's shrouded in dark

[Pre-Chorus]
And always meets nothing and shatters the walls
That I built from the tissue you said wouldn't scar
That I would be something if I was a man
But the time tells the story, I'm nothing at all

[Chorus]
'Cause I laugh in the face of the man that you want me to be
And my medicine taste like one more and I'm gonna OD
And it's bitter and burns as it rots through my teeth
Like those hollow-tip words I wish I didn't speak
But I'll grin through the hurt, asking "aren't you proud of me?"
But I'll grin through the hurt, asking "aren't you proud of me?"

[Verse 2]
My mama said "keep your hands out or your pockets and
Hold onto faith like it's stopping your bleed"
But I've got a hand on the trigger
And my god, it's stuck in the folds on my jeans

[Pre-Chorus]
And I spent my time on the walls
That I built from the words that you said wouldn't scar
You said I would be something if I was a man
But the time tells the story, I'm not one at all

[Chorus]
'Cause I laugh in the face of the man that you taught me to be
And my medicine taste like one more and I'm gonna OD
And it's bitter and burns as it rots through my teeth
Like those hollow-tip words I wish I didn't speak
But I'll grin through the hurt, asking "aren't you proud of me?"
But I'll grin through the hurt, asking "aren't you proud of me?"

[Outro]
Aren't you proud?
You said I would be something if I was a man
Aren't you proud of me?
Rotting my teeth, I would be something
But I'll grin through the hurt, asking "aren't you proud of me?"