Apology

{Verse 1: Clevva]
Look, I just need to say sorry
I’m sure there is no hurry
My deepest thoughts I’ve scanned
I really, really hope you understand
And when I go and get angry
It happens so quick I’d win the grand prix
I really try to not express it
I really try to resist
But it takes over like is planned
Staged for people in the crowd
This is my apology to you
Honestly, I mean it I do
If I could stop it from taking over
Or at least give you some cover
I honest to god would do
I’m sure y'all wondering who
I won’t name out of respect
We don’t get on, but hope we don’t disconnect
I want to go into detail
To help us not falter and fail
You’re always so forgiving
And I’m just attacking
But I don’t want to be
So let me explain so you see
We may still be able to get along
I’m gonna try, maybe I’m wrong
Okay so you get the idea
That our future I fear
Cause I really do have respect for you
Sorry if I don’t show it, but its true
Let me go into more detail
My point of view I’ll unveil
So I lose my mind to the fury
The crowd laughs as they see
I told you in my last, how I feel
So I have nothing left to conceal
I get angry, I leave my own mind
Leaving Mr. Angry Tom to grind
Not that’s not a choice I make
But he does it for my own sake
At least that’s what he thinks
Then I’m left after, on the brink
Not trying to make an excuse
Responsibility I won’t refuse
And then when you call me a twat
I agree secretly with my inner diplomat
Lyrically I may seem like I’m strong
But in reality that is just wrong
I can’t even fight my own wars
A voice in my head makes me abide by its laws
It takes military control in arguments
Instead of letting me sort my own defence
I’m opening up just to explain a message
I’m sorry, I hope we can rebuild the bridge
And once more get along, like we used too
And maybe one day we’ll stop with the argue
But I found in rap I can express
What I once used to suppress

[Verse 2: Clevva]
Okay final verse coming in for you
I’ll continue to just be true
I’ll never lie in this rhyme
That’d just be a crime
I want to lyrically murder my feelings
And all the pain this brings
The motto of this rap is to say sorry
If you haven’t picked up on the story
Emotionally this is detailed
To do this I’m compelled
I know saying sorry isn’t enough
Because I get angry and act tough
The purpose of this is so you understand
And aren’t left having to command
To try and get an answer I can’t speak
Except for in rap my thoughts play hide-and-seek
But from doing this analysis
I can now see in the blackness
I can try to promise
I’ll seal it with a kiss
We’re closing into the finish line
The crowd are going wild, all the time
Maybe this will be my last race
My last angry face
Not long left to go now
I’m wondering how
Is this my last race, my last rage
I have understanding beyond my age
I feel pity, I feel sorry, that why
This is my final apology