Apistat Commander, the second track off Xiu Xiu’s 2003 album A Promise, was written about suicide, and coping with suicidal thoughts. Jamie mentions former band member Yvonne Chen’s name in this track, as well as her siblings Wei and Huai. Jamie stated in an interview that
[The names] are more ther...
[Verse 1]
Oh, along the rocks
It's good, it's not so hard now
Oh, I bite my tongue, who cares?
This chance to drop off
[Chorus]
All that you left, you left for someone
All of this hurt that's wilted off
All this relief, it's the oddest thing
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
All that you left, you left for someone
All of this hurt that's wilted off
All this relief, it's the oddest thing
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
[Verse 2]
Chen, he'll never come
That's fine, I lost my thought
Wei Huai could talk me down
Still, still, this chance to drop off
[Chorus]
All that you left, you left for someone
All of this hurt that's wilted off
All this relief, it's the oddest thing
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
All that you left, you left for someone
All of this hurt that's wilted off
All this relief, it's the oddest thing
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
[Instrumental Break]
[Chorus]
All that you left, you left for someone
All of this hurt that's wilted off
All this relief, it's the oddest thing
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
All that you left, you left for someone
All of this hurt that's wilted off
All this relief, it's the oddest thing
Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God
Apistat Commander was written by Yvonne Chen & Tally Jones & Lauren Andrews & Cory McCulloch & Aaron Russell & Jamie Stewart.
Apistat Commander was produced by Jamie Stewart.
Xiu Xiu released Apistat Commander on Tue Feb 18 2003.
Regarding the production, Jamie stated that
Back then I think we only had two synths. Two shitty synths, and not shitty in a good way. We had a Yamaha DX21, which I think Cory was the only person in the entire world who could get some decent sounds out of it, and some other garbage synth that I don...