Apathy

Apathy holds me
Takes care of my wants
I don’t control me
Turned off for so long
Tried to live deeply
Guess I did it wrong
Numb to the feeling
Can’t seem to heal I’ve been gone

Months go by I’m starting to feel I’ll
Never know why
Everything stays but can’t move the knife that’s
Still stuck inside
Blocking the rain trying to come out
If I can’t feel the pain I guess nothing’s real now
Try to escape it
Might be too late out of time

If every day’s feeling less
It’ll be meaningless
Bullets don’t sink
Losing the seconds
Sleep doesn’t give rest
Unable to think
It’s worsе that you’re fine now
All I evеr think about
Did I ever change?
Did I ever know myself?
I’m just going round and round
Put my brain in a cage

Tried to live for me
Don’t I want it enough?
Numb to the feeling
Can’t seem to heal I’ve been gone

Months go by and I’m starting to feel that I’ll
Never know why
Everything stays but can’t move the knife that’s
Still stuck inside
Blocking the rain trying to come out
If I can’t feel the pain I guess nothing’s real now
Try to escape it
Might be too late out of time

Tried to live for me
Don’t I want it enough?
Numb to the feeling
Can’t seem to heal I’ve been gone

Months go by and I’m starting to feel that I’ll
Never know why
Everything stays but can’t move the knife that’s
Still stuck inside
Blocking the rain trying to come out
If I can’t feel the pain I guess nothing’s real now