Anti Hero

[Verse 1]
I keep my blinders on tonight, won't know where we're goin', where we're goin'
The way her cold hands felt in mine reminds me I'm still broken, rips me open
She died before we made it to the hospital; I held my mother's body as she cried
And all my life she felt so tall and powerful, but now I was the rock which she relied

[Chorus]
After all this time, what a fool I was to think we still had time, when he still had time
In all my life, what a fool I was to think we still had time, but we still have time, there's still time

[Verse 2]
I was just a child, her love was like the ocean, like the ocean
Dark and infinite, cold but ever flowin', still I'm frozen
Ignorance has always been a luxury, but you can't go back to blindness now with all you've seen
And who am I without a man to comfort me? I guess after all these years, perhaps we'll finally see

[Chorus]
In all this time, what a fool I was to think we still had time, when he still had time
In all my life, what a fool I was to think we still had time, but there's still time

[Outro]
So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me
I ain't the Anti-Hero of this story
I force a smile 'cause I'm that kind of sleaze
Just a ghost of a man who I wanted to be
So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me
Just let me lie, closed blinds though the morning
Upon a time, was a boy with a dream
Now I'm so fuckin' high, I think I'm starting to see
So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me
I'm just a boy who had too much to drink
No, I won't die, I'm too scared, I'm too weak
Still I flirt with that darkness, closing in on me
So don't you cry, don’t you cry, not for me
I lost it all, there ain't nothing to see
I'm in a hell I made special for me
Now I'm so high, I think I'm starting to see
I think I’m starting to see
I think I’m starting to see, hm
I think I’m starting to see