​angel beside me

[Verse 1]
I got my angel right beside me, but I still want 'em far
You can tell the pain's been felt just by the way that I talk
Yeah, my insides, they been burning, scathe me why won't you stop?
Got all these people speculatin', hopin' I lose it all
I got my angel right beside me, but I still want 'em far
Why can't you see that I been tryin'? I can't take this no more
I just need someone to come hold me, say they love me, that's all
But this bed feel so damn cold without you here in my arms, yeah

[Verse 2]
I just wanna know, how do you feel now?
Are you finally happy without me now?
I know, I disappointed and let you down
I lovе you for forever, pleasе help me, God
When I step outside my door now, I see evil faces
Is there any way to help me get up out this matrix?
Yeah, my arms been too damn weak and I can't turn the pages
'Cause all I see is what I've done and I can't seem to face it

[Chorus]
Writings on the wall and I left encrypted
Just wanna spare you some the pain that has me keep my distance
I can't let you down no more, may God be my witness
I been withdrawn from these pills, can't seem to beat the sickness
I can't help that I'm in love with you, the one I'm missin'
Blessed me with a curse when on my lips, you kissed, oh
I know I don't got your attention, but girl, please just listen
I'm not afraid of praisin' God, admittin' that I'm christian

[Verse 3]
Sittin' in first class sippin' champagne with my bros
With time, the pain diminishes, I don't need these hoes
But then I get to thinkin' like it's been way too long
Overthink myself to sadness, now I'm back to square one, uh-uh
Be the one for me, will you be the one?
I promise I won't bug you or be troublesome
I wanted her to stay, but I just let her run
Can't blame you for not wantin' what you suffer from
Wipe the fire from both my eyes, now I ain't blind no more
Just wanna travel 'round the world and take my girl on tour
I know that I fucked up, but what you hate me for?
Tell God I need Him now, I'm knocking at the door

[Chorus]
Writings on the wall and I left encrypted
Just wanna spare you some the pain that has me keep my distance
I can't let you down no more, may God be my witness
I been withdrawn from these pills, can't seem to beat the sickness
I can't help that I'm in love with you, the one I'm missin'
Blessed me with a curse when on my lips, you kissed, oh
I know I don't got your attention, but girl, please just listen
I'm not afraid of praisin' God, admittin' that I'm christian