An Open Letter to My Former Self

[Verse 1]
What's happening, bruv?
I see you're out there having some fun
Came out swinging, you was packing a punch
Caught shine from the limelight and you was lapping it up
And yeah, you had a good run
When lifes got your down, you just rack up a bump
Guess the problems you encounter don't matter as much
When you're maggoted drunk sitting at the back of a club
But what in the actual fuck?
You went from smashing your craft to just smashing the drugs
Sitting in a lounge room with junkies and packeted sluts
So, tell me, is that the same dream you had when you're young?
What have you become, lost your passion and love
Lost your morals when you were catching a buzz
Instead of acting your age, you was acting a cunt
But you're gonna be held accountable to your actions for once
So, when your daughter grows up and gets hit with the truth
How do you explain everything you spit in the booth?
How do you explain hanging with a criminal crew?
How do you provide context to what she listening to?
But now you don't give a fuck and that's the position you choose
'Cause you not even, couldn't envision a noose
Stuck in an infinite loop, forever singing a blues
Trying to validate yourself with some internet views
I see you swerving on a [?] and booze
Blissfully unaware of the innocence of youth
But it's time to take responsibility for the shit that you do
'Cause you've only got yourself to blame when it didn't improve
I mean, stop using your depression as a shitty excuse
As your rational for laughing, now you're living it dude
Talking about drugs on stage when there's kids in the room
Stop being so selfish cunt, it's fucking bigger than you

[Verse 2]
You can pretend like it never occurred
That your fans were hangin' off your each and every word
But tell me, what is your intelligence worth?
If you're dumbing it down just so you can sell 'em a verse
I mean, what purpose did the pelican serve?
Turned you to Icarus, you thought you putting them feathers to work
You thought they carry you from here to the end of the Earth
But flew too close to the sun and that left you with burns
But you was proud of the weight of the scar
Gave you an excuse to act the way that you are
Feeding yourself scripts, you kept playing the parts
So, the light at the end of the tunnel would remain in the dark
And I know you got some pain in your heart
But at least you never lost your way with them bars
But you lost your way in some bars, I seen you draining a glass
You was making a mess of yourself instead of making your mark
But party up if you think it'll help
Eating the [?] most nights [?] yourself
Keep pretending to yourself that you're giving them hell
When you pour another glass up and have a drink to your health
Yeah, have another drink to your health
But you want a six for deep or in a prisoner cell?
See only you can make a choice of how you live in this world
It's hard to see what lies ahead when you're killing yourself
You still remember it all
A hand full of Xannies and that Henney to pour
You was lucky as hell, cunt I would have end it for sure
If you mother ain't hear the noise when you hit your head on the floor
You was afraid of the climb but never scared of the fall
Bro, you ain't playing a game, you're just checking a score
But if you're ready to jump, best be ready to soar
And I promise you it gets better than you could ever have though
Bring a tear to your face
For all the time you fucked up and were clearly ashamed
Just to catch a glimpse of yourself when you nearing a stage
On the other side of the world and they're cheering your name
Or just to see your daughter's beautiful smile
You wanna set the best example you can provide
It's up to you what you do with your life
But if only I could show you what the future is like

[Outro]
Whatever happened to them dreams you had
Why you keep lying to yourself like that
You better take the time to make things right
It's up to your and how you life your life