An Open Letter to Helen pt. I

[Verse 1]
I've been stuck inside my mind
Figuring that this labyrinth is just another form of grind
Never thought I make it past the
Condescending in banter
Ascending sentence to transfer
Levitate for the answer
God ain't really real just a figment of my thought
Dishonest truth to dampen out the sadness when I walk
Just as static as the magnet that's attracting as I talk
Esoteric to a fault I'm just expelling all my thoughts
I'm defending as the ark
Nail depression to the wall
Take a piece and be apart
My last supper, last fucker
My glass mother shattered, I'm clashing to depart
See the muscles and the cellular
The blood is running soft
Light headed, still dreaded
Jamaican to my pops feel?
Rearrange my countenance
As a tear should never fall
Slim picking on an ounce of piff
The spliff is season all, still
Trading in the nourishment
For services to spark, kill

[Verse 2]
See I ain't watch my mother die
But the vegetated state of a degenerated situation
Non-communication
Theresa told the hospital that she ain't have a son
The hysterectomy, in exchange my father gave her one
And I ain't trying to live within a slump sitting in a stump
Feeling chump with chump change
The ever breathing lung
Outlaw, star system
Galactic to a mars christened
Rei, transform, is all worn incisions
Laceration, validation
Pass the casket. vacant
Hole in the wall, DC
My momma's karma made it
All the while the ivy's got a hold wrapped behind my back
Bitch lied about a carriage missed the baby's at her chest
Plea bargain
Fuck nigga to fuck my nigga next
Took me to the funeral usual bitches ain't shit
But us niggas been the cause
Dragging out our feelings since the love is just a farce
But the player never paused
Sauter up my vessels
I got armor to distress you
If I die before the war is over
Slow up on the park
Hop out
Gun toting I'm stroking for the fall
Put a bullet in my fathers head, I swear I'll never call