Look in the mirror thinkin I'm healed
I see through my eyes don’t know what to feel
I feel lotta things my mind already filled
Some nights been wishing for real
My mama would shield
Me against the demons
I cannot expose aloud with my voice
Suicide a relief it can't be a choice
But when your soul poisoned
Life is just pointless, wait wait
Me? I can't erase
That night I was drinking hard with no chase
Drank to my face, a way to escape
Wish I put it on tape, i was in my space
Crying like baby
That night I got what Amy
Was feeling within her
And trust me that shit must be crazy
That type of feeling that cuts you so deep
It will leave you bleeding
But you love to bleed
Cuz seeing your blood
Gon’ make you think
Shit I know I'm alive or something at least
Feeding off it, feeding the evil
Feeding the beast that made you so feeble
Feeling depressed for feeling unequal
Dealing with stress and stupid ass people
I need a break or two
I need a break or two
I need a break or two
Somewhere to hide ain't no peak a boo
I know one day I'll find my truce
In heaven with Zeus sippin on juice
I wanna cut loose, was talking to Fuze
Told him I need some time to face all my dues
He told me I gotta stay full of my faith
He know that one day a better day is coming my way
I didn't reply but you helped me in a way
I never knew a human can save
Another life from getting erased
Just by supplying some gentle attention
For strange feelings you claim
When you feeling lame for feeling that way
And you gonna be scared someone's gon blame
You for the same
Reason you blamed you for the same
Reason you blamed your brain
You aim your crane, you pray to gain
Some bravery to let it rain and go Cobain
Another stain on windowpane
Tryna look back at what you've made
Seeing the real only had stayed
So baby can I feel
Something that feels way way real than this?
Cuz I been getting tired
Of the same old choir, of the same old choir
So baby can I feel
Something that feels way way real than this?
Cuz I been getting to my head everyday
Like damn can I get a rest from feeling myself
Even though I'm feeling myself when I feel myself
This feeling like prison since I was twelve
If you ain’t got no food yeah I’ll spilt it in half
I look at myself if I really wanna laugh
But throughout all my past I learnt
I learnt something
I know nothing
So baby can I feel
Something that feels way way real than this?
Cuz I been getting tired
Of the same old choir, of the same old choir