American Dream

[Verse 1]
This is the last song that I’m gonna write about you
Let it all about, scared of my life without you
Cause I’m just a man who is flawed
Temptation push me to the brink and I lost
I never cheated but sometimes I thought
That is the reason that I had to walk
You deserve something so much and so better
And I always put my business before pleasure
I’m just a sinner and only nineteen
Hungry and chasing American Dreams
You want the family, the house, and the ring
I want the rari, the lights and the green
Don’t get it twisted, girl I still love you
I don’t wanna hold you up no more
Lately you been on my mind, thinking of you
Replaying the memories that I have stored
Everything changed, really not much is the same
I am the one you can blame
I broke the promises chasing the fame
You say a monster is what I became
This shit just had to be, used to live happily
Now I can only see you in my fantasies
Shit is so different, shit is so different
Until it is gone, you won’t truly miss it, yeah

[Verse 2]
I tried my best, truly I tried
Battling demons that I have inside
I am so sorry, didn’t want you to cry
Those images burning inside of my mind
Drinking this whiskey to numb all the anger
I'm just reflecting inside of my chamber
The one that I loved, became a stranger
My heart has grown cold, as cold as a glacier
Don’t know if you’ll hear this, don’t know if you’ll listen
But this is the truth and I don’t want it hidden
I do not think I’m ready for commitment
I gotta sacrifice all for this vision
I got this dream that i’m chasing, your time I am wasting, and I cannot do it no more
Yeah, I pray you don’t hate me, or think that I’m crazy to work on my life and help yours
Last song that I’m gonna write about you, just know that I’m grateful
Know that I’m thankful for all that you’ve done, I envy the man who will call you his angel
Yeah, know I’ll be thinking about you come every october and first week of april
Please wish me luck every time you look up and see that airplane flying from Barclays to Staples