Am i a good person?

[Verse 1 : Trehnt]
Walking around by myself outside trying
To give myself a peace of mind and why
You left me at the perfect time I thought
We were just getting started oh my
It'd break my heart to see you with another guy reminiscing
Bout the times that you were mine it's a

[Bridge: Trehnt]
Damn shame you could've had it all with me we could've
Ran the world all by ourselves I want

[Verse 2: Trehnt]
You to see we were meant to be can you
Think about your actions for me cus I
Gave you the time that I had for free just to
See you again would mean the world to me
Constant pain for all of eternity
All of this fighting concerning me
Yesterday was my last opportunity
I wish depression had an immunity

[Verse 3: Trehnt]
And this is the beginning of the end
I tried to talk it out and be your friend
I go to therapy to make amends
The way you treat me doesn't make any sense
I told you I was wrong and I tried to fix it
I guess having patience just doesn't dismiss it
Baby I just needed you to listen

[Verse 4: Trehnt]
I don't cry, I create rain from my eyes cus i
Look forward to brighter days and skies I don't
Feel pain I feel a bullet in my brain from the
Hundred times that I've been mislead I think that
Life has a grand plan all against me
Which includes calling my ex while I'm tipsy
Seems too right but it's all too risky I
Remember the last time that you kissed me

[Verse 5: Trehnt]
A faithless hope that includes no redemption
I almost died but I found the prevention
Almost texted you but fought the temptation
Fought the pain without the medication
I gave you time, understanding and patience
Ended shit without a declaration