Always Watching... Waiting...

[Chorus]
They're watching and waiting, love seeing you failing
They know what you're hiding, they hate when you're fighting
I said "no, not again," but the demons come in
They want me to die, I've caved into their lies
I've been starving myself, thinking it's for my health
I want to get help, but can't convince myself
They're dragging me down, I can feel myself drown
I don't know what to do, I pray each day I'll get through

[Verse 1 (*talking*)]
I started doing drugs, I started drinking alcohol
I never felt the love, no one knew about my fall
Sitting all alone, no onе heard my desperatе call
I couldn’t cry for help, I’m trapped inside these cell walls
I tried to stand up strong, used confidence as a doll
All I did was wrong, I started to withdrawal
*Please get the fuck out of my head*
*Get the fuck out*

[Pre-Chorus]
Can you even see them when you speak too much?
When you think too much?
When you read too much?
They always seem to get you at your big mistake
When you start to break
Before you think you're safe

[Chorus]
They're watching and waiting, love seeing you failing
They know what you're hiding, they hate when you're fighting
I said "no, not again," but the demons come in
They want me to die, I've caved into their lies
I've been starving myself, thinking it's for my health
I want to get help, but can't convince myself
They're dragging me down, I can feel myself drown
I don't know what to do, I pray each day I'll get through

[Verse 2]
All I did was cry, made a decision final
Had to cut the ties, I started to spiral
If I killed myself, I felt like it’d go viral
When I needed help, my family sent the Bible

[Pre-Chorus]
People always trying to change my mind
When it's help I find
They say I'm "really fine"

[Chorus]
They're watching and waiting, love seeing you failing
They know what you're hiding, they hate when you're fighting
I said "no, not again," but the demons come in
They want me to die, I've caved into their lies
I've been starving myself, thinking it's for my health
I want to get help, but can't convince myself
They're dragging me down, I can feel myself drown
I don't know what to do, I pray each day I'll get through

[Bridge]
But in the end, my truth will come through
You all will pretend, that I missed my cue
And when I'm above, I'll share all the love
Maybe then you, will see me renew

[Chorus]
They're watching and waiting, love seeing you failing
They know what you're hiding, they hate when you're fighting
I said "no, not again," but the demons come in
They want me to die, I've caved into their lies
I've been starving myself, thinking it's for my health (but in the end, my truth will come through)
I want to get help, but can't convince myself (You all will pretend, that I missed my cue)
They're dragging me down, I can feel myself drown (and when I'm above, I'll share all the love)
I don't know what to do, I pray each day I'll get through (maybe then you, will see me renew)