Always On Me

[Verse]
Wow, great work, you almost killed grandma
You stupid dipshits, sometimes I can't stand ya'll
How am I suppose to act, the camel's back is broken
It snapped in a dramatic traumatic family explosion
Now I'm tryin' to pick the pieces up 'cause that's what I've always done
It's up to me when things erupt, at home I was the oldest one
Feels if I don't focus on self improvement than no one will
Now I have no chill and every flow is overkill
Every time you broke a pill my psyche shattered further
If I fold this decomposes so I wildly had to nurture
Our symbiosis to bring her back to stability
To always bе who holds us, it's bogus, my sadness visibly
Distracted endlеssly from efficiently making art
I have a brilliancy within me 'till you break my heart
I'm grateful for all my family's love and everything they've done for me
But last month was dumb, you really fucking fucked with me
Sucks it's always on me to sweep the messes up
I love you but please you need to step it up
It's tough enough to succeed with all this extra stuff so
Either you grow, or I need to go
I'm not the breadwinner, I don't support us that way
More family stage restore order will what I have to say [?]
And that's okay
'Cause it's a role that I've been glad to play
Done this shit since ninth grade, happy with no hazard pay
The Diplomat, pull a wisdom from a magician's hat
My linguistic intuition fixes cataclysm at
A rate of profound efficiency it just gets to me
This gift I give expends extensive metal energy
That withers my inner musician, feel like Palpatine
Blasted so much magic that I'm old as fuck and rather mean
I'm twenty seven but my mind's a hundred forty three
Growing up I had a few friends who struggled more than me
It was embarrassing, like "Dude can I come over
My folks are breaking shit again I don't think that they're sober"
Eating dinner at the homies house feeling ashamed
When my sister called screaming "Can you come home?"
And I'm like "Damn"

[Outro]
In his first experiences
And in these actions
Upon the psychic nature of a trial