Alone

[Verse 1]
I wake up ready to face a new challenge
Two eggs, a can of V8 to keep balance
Early morning calisthenics just to keep myself right
Can't improve my life without improving my health, right?
Cause I could have been healthy as hell
But couldn't pick myself up the last time that I fell
Into these slumps that I constantly fall in
Feeling like sleeps cousin always be calling
And it's so cliche to hear somebody say that
But that's how I really feel, fuck it I'll take that
So I finish my calisthenics, take a shower and dress
And go to work, but fuck work - now I'm depressed
Because that job never really did pay shit
I hated it but I did what I needed to do and was patient
Ain't it a bitch doing shit that you hate?
Just trying to put some food on your plate, I know you relate
Working at a dead-end job on dead-end nights
Trying to support what you feel's a dead-end life
And when your hands are just about worn down to the bone
It's time to go home, right back to being alone

[Verse 2]
And at home it's no different than work
I deal with emptiness instead of only dealing with jerks
Their lack of friendliness can get to me so bad that it hurts
Well fuck the friendly shit cause that doesn't decide what I'm worth
Cause I'm a human
Being whatever that I believe in
Living how I want to for any number of reasons
But any one of those reasons could be the reason that I am
Quietly unhappy and always being defiant
The state of mind that I am in reflects my environment
To change my environment, shit, I've been trying it
"you're failing." Falling with nobody to catch me
Hoping eventually somebody would help me
Open up to let the outside world in
But no one's showing up, I guess I'm on my own then
So fuck, I deal with it and just get into the zone
And adjust to always being alone

[Verse 3]
Alone in my thoughts, alone in my mind
Alone without friends, alone and I'm fine
But I'm stuck in this repetitive cycle I live in
I do the same things everyday, and that's a given
And that's not really living, it's more just like existing
So I just exist in my meaningless existence
Until I exit I'll fight with persistence
For an existence with some type of fulfillment
Alone or not, this what I know I got
I march to the sound of my own drummers and stop
My art's bound high, showing no signs of a drop
And my heart pounds like I know that I'm all I got
But it's cool, it don't matter 'cause whatever the case
I can overcome any obstacle I face
And I don't need extra complications in place
To get in my way, invading my space
I'll be alone then